Just Breathe

So the wedding, all the preparations, all the hoo-ha, is finally over! Amazing how something that occupied so much of our time is now nothing but a memory! Just another reminder of how we really put too much importance on things that will eventually just evaporate anyway!

That said, it's time for me to whine again. I sooo need a vacation! Every time I plan to take one, something happens and I'm still sitting here. So until then, I hereby declare my brain on official hiatus - until further notice.

Forever

You sit alone in a dark room, yet you hear my voice ringing in your ears. You turn on the tv and turn up the volume real high, yet your mind drifts and you remember words I said. Conversations we've had start running through your head. You go to sleep.. yet you dream of me.

You keep running, but you can't seem to get away. You can't escape me because you know what I mean to you. You can't get rid of me because you know that I am good for you. No matter how many times you curse me, how many times you try to get over me, I'm still here.

Why are you so mad at me? Why are you so annoyed by me? All I've done is support you and try to help you see what's right for you.

There was a time when you used to like listening to me.. when you felt challenged by me.. when you analyzed every word I said to you.

Do you remember those days? What happened to change all of that? You think I care? I only cared for you. You think I'll be upset? I was only upset for you. You think I'll go away? You can never get rid of me, no matter how hard you try.. not because I won't go away, but because one day, you'll realize, I was always a part of you.

Always,
your conscience

Feel Good

Since I whined in my last post, I thought I'd go in the opposite direction now.

Want to know what one of the best feelings for me right now is?? Completely dark room.. the soft buzz of the air conditioner in the background.. cold room... tired eyes... laying down in the comfy bed, head sunk deep on the soft pillow... comforter pulled up tight around me.... eye lids getting heavier.. and heavier... until i fall off into deep sleep. Those last few moments as you float into the land of dreams are absolute bliss!!

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Tag.. You're IT!

I've been busy the past few weeks with preparations for a family wedding. Here are a couple questions for you though:

* Why is it that we always seem to take the 'wrong' traits/habits from the West??

In the past, someone gets married, you buy them a wedding gift when they move into their new home. End of story.

NOW, there's a bridal shower, embarak, baby shower, not forgetting all the money that gets spent on clothes, make up, hair, accessories for the engagement AND wedding party! PEOPLE, please... you want to get married, enjoy.. congratulations.. but spare us the empty wallets in the process! :)

Instead, how come people don't pick up "punctuality" from the West?!? Last night we had a gathering for the bride; people showed up THREE HOURS LATE!

* Why is it that people feel compelled to tell you 'el fal lech' (hope ur next!)??

What if I don't want to be next? What if I'm completely at peace with my singlehood and am not interested in moving to the "State of Matrimony"? And the sad thing, if I dare say anything to the effect of 'not interested', or the look on my faces gives it away, I get a LOOONG lecture about how 'YOU MUST!'

ok... so tag, I'm it!

Do You Have The Time?

How come there never seems to be enough 'time'?

When I was a student, I thought I didn't have enough time to get things done. When I started work I thought 'Man, I had it easy when I was in school! I had so much free time!'. When I started working AND studying at the same time, I thought 'I was such a baby back then!! If I can find time for both, that means I had so much free time before when I just had to deal with ONE!'

Now that I'm back to just working, I still don't have time!

The cycle continues while the excuses get more creative. There always seems to be a reason that's keeping us (me!) busy. My question is, why can't I find time?? Where is it hiding?!

مأجورين

I want THAT!

You know how sometimes you see something and think *i wish i had that*, thinking that *that* is better than your *this*?

Keep in mind that a lot of times, that's not the case. It's merely you getting BORED of what you have and so, something new SEEMS more appealing. However, it's not necessarily better.. and that, you'll eventually notice, when you've gotten bored with the *this*!!

Lighten Up!

Ok, people are way too serious. Lighten up! So instead of a real post, nothing says smile like something that's bad for you.. so enjoy the below EASY recipe:

Ingredients:
* 7 Mars chocolate bars (regular size)
* 2 Nestle Cream (qeshta/gaimer)
* 1 Sara Lee Marble Pound Cake (may be replaced with vanilla or chocolate pound cake)
* 1 Flake chocolate bar

Recipe:
* Cut the Mars bars into small pieces (about 1 inch thick)
* Place above pieces in a microwave for about 20/30 secs until they're semi-melted
* Pour the 2 Nestle creams into a pot, add the melted Mars pieces, and place on stove
* Keep stirring on low heat until the Mars has completely melted and the mixture has turned completely brown
* Cut the Sara Lee cake into thin strips and line the serving pan (preferrably glass pan) with them
* Pour the chocolate/cream mix on top of the cake
* Sprinkle the Flake chocolate on top for decorative purposes
* Cover with clear wrap and place in fridge for 1.5 hours minimum before serving

Optional:
* After said 1.5 hours, remove pan from fridge, grab spoon, sit in front of the TV and eat until you can't breathe, or there's none left - whichever comes first! :) oh, and don't forget to send me some!

© SF

Circle of Concern

I started off by writing a semi-long post, but decided to delete it all. I'll simply summarize what I want to say, by borrowing from none other than Mr. Covey himself.

"Circle of Influence vs Circle of Concern." Why do we waste so much time on the things we can't control? And what's even worse, is that a lot of times we know when something is bad for us, yet that doesn't seem to be enough to stop us!

Man Eater

She walked back from class. Her steps slow and clumsy. It was a warm and sunny summer day. She decided to walk through the other buildings and dorms to get to her own. Perhaps a glimpse of other people's lives is what she needed.

There wasn't much to see, until she stepped into the last dorm before her own. The minute she laid her foot into the lobby, she saw them in a distance. He was studying with his fiancée, and they both seemed peaceful and content. His hand on the back of her neck, stroking her hair gently, with his eyes focused on his text book.

Noticing movement, his eyes shot up from his book and met her own. She had a determined look, and suddenly, her steps were filled with confidence. She swayed, slowly; her eyes focused on the guy across the lobby.

He looked up again from his book, only to notice that her eyes were still fixated on him. Starting to feel a little curious and a little uncomfortable, he looked back at his book and tried to ignore the female walking towards him and his fiancée.

As she got closer, he decided to look up one last time in an attempt to understand what was happening. His eyes met hers. The corner of her lips barely curved up in a small hint of a smile. Her eyes seductfully locked onto his. That very moment, his fiancée looked up in time to catch this exchange.

As she walked out of the lobby and back out into the street, before the door shut behind her, she could hear the fiancée’s clumsy accusatory questions screamed behind her. She grinned and walked back to her dorm room, peaceful and content.