Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Though I have no idea what I want to write about, I just felt like writing. So, if you're reading this, good luck in taking this ride with me.
I'm currently on vacation, away from home, work, family, friends. While it's been nice and relaxing, a part of me misses it all. Ok, not the work part! But the family and friends, the trying to spread my time between them, work and other obligations. Having friends getting upset at me cuz they haven't seen me in so long.. the weekly family meetings.. all of it (ok, not people getting upset at me!)
I guess sometimes we don't realize just how good we have it, until we step away. Even though I get frustrated at times with certain family members or friends, I miss them! I miss our fights and annoyances. I miss getting that sms from them, phone call or email yelling at me asking where on Earth I've been hiding.
When I was home, they tagged me as "me5tafya" cuz I was always too busy. Now that I'm far away, I regret not putting in the effort. I regret wasting time on stupid things, work included, as opposed to spending time with those who love me.
We only get one chance at life. Every minute we waste, we'll never get back. So, if you're a family member or a friend and reading this, I miss you! And I'm sorry that I've been so bad at keeping in touch. Hopefully, when I get back at the end of the week, I'll put in more effort.. so back off and stop complaining ;)
To the rest of the readers out there, stop wasting time with those who don't matter so much. Remember the people out there who love you and would do anything for you; remember those who, when the chips are down, will be the first by your side. Give them your time, before it's too late. Prioritize. No regrets!
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Why do humans interact? Why do we communicate? What purpose are we trying to serve? Do we even really need to?
Different people have different needs. Some communicate in order to connect and build relationships. Others communicate due to an inner need to just talk, to just speak, to just say what's on their mind.. as if keeping that information in will cause it to fester and rot.
Knowing WHY we reach out to others is vital. The reason behind someone connecting to you can help you better understand their motives and expectations. Every action warrants a reaction, sometimes equal, sometimes more extreme, other times, completely misled!!
Some people will put up with everything, others will put up with nothing, and some very few unique individuals will actually measure everything, and base their decision on your total net value, as opposed to an isolated incident.
My advice, get rid of expectations. It makes life a lot easier. You can't control how someone acts, but you can control how you react. If your expectations are non-existant, then you can reduce the possibility of being affected when caught in the human guillotine.. when someone decides to turn you into a disposable human!
Timing is everything in life.. when the tide comes in, and if it's not worth sticking it out, turn around and walk out the door.. and never look back!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Typical to family gatherings, especially during Eid, the kids come over and they’re all excited about their new clothes and the money they’ve collected. They go around running all over the place with an unlimited amount of energy until… one of them bangs his head on a table!!!!
Suddenly, everything changes - screams, crying, tears, the whole 9 yards - but in the midst of all of that, something amazing happens. When you go up to that crying kid and he looks at you with trusting eyes, pouting lips, and arms stretched out for u to pick him up.. when you grab him and he wraps his arms around u, sighs, and rests his head on ur shoulders.
They trust u. They know that ur supposed to protect them from harm. It’s that unconditional innocent expectation of protection that gives us no choice but to comply and do all we can to keep them safe.
It’s sad how as we grow up, we go from that complete trust stage to getting so used to disappointment, that we stop expecting ‘good’ from people, and always wait for “that other shoe to fall”. With each betrayal we encounter in life, that look of trust changes to a look of suspicion! Gone are the days where you leave your door unlocked without thinking twice.. gone are the days where you leave the car running with the key in the ignition!
At least we'll always have the kids, that innocent look, and that priceless trusting hug that makes everything else fade away!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Not sure what it is, but for some reason, when night falls, I find it very difficult to sleep. Not that I don't want to, not that I'm not tired, but somehow I always manage to find something else to keep me busy - no matter how insignificant that something is. The bigger problem is that I don't even fully realize just how insignificant what I'm doing is till the next morning when I'm fighting with my snooze for those extra 9 mins of sleep!! I literally lay there with 1/4th of an eye open thinking "if I sleep for another 3 mins, can I still make it on time?" (yes, those 3 mins are VALUABLE!!!)
Do you wake up in the morning thinking 'why did I do that to myself?' Do you yawn throughout the day & feel like a creature of the night? Do you wonder what possesses people to wake up before noon on their day off (why, oh why, would anyone do that)?!
If your answer is "yes", then welcome to my world.. and welcome to our club! We are those who refuse to spend 1/3rd of our life sleeping! Think about it, by the time you turn 30 (ummm, in 25 years for me!!) you'll have spent approximately 10 of those years sleeping!!! :O
I'm sure I can find something better to do with those 10 years!
(please note: sleep IS my friend, during daylight! sleeping 500 hours during the day is fine, it's just not ok to sleep that much at night!! )